fear of future | STIOMM #4

<p><em><span style="color: rgb(241, 1, 0)">part #4</span></em></p><p><em><span style="color: #F10100">what the fuck am i doing with my life man.</span></em></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255)">I seriously need to punch myself or something to get myself together because if I don't do shit that's actually worth for my life then im probably gonna end up on the streets. Maybe im exaggerating or maybe not i don't fucking know man. Im in a position where I can't rely on the vocational school to teach me the stuff I need because the school fuckin sucks and we got like 1 shitty ahh teacher that is specifically for our vocational program and the rest of the teachers are like core subject teachers MEANING i ain't learning enough shit because one shitty teacher ain't enough so when the time comes i enter college/university Im not gonna know anything because that teacher sucks.</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255)">Problem is, I don't study regularly and spend my time on shit like this. I don't know why the fuck I don't do what I want to do why the fuck is my brain not doing what I want.</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255)">(I'm from europe btw so I had to lookup the american equivalent of my school so my bad if i said gibberish.)</span></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255)">TL; DR: have to rely on myself because the school sucks and isn't providing me enough information when i get to college/university (i don't even know the difference (._.))</span></p><p></p><p><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255)">my mood:</span></p><img src="https://ella.janitorai.com/profile-pics/04b8d65a-8177-4ff6-9d02-83e7b1720001_a9b30002-a5e1-451a-8ffb-e42bf178194b.webp?width=1000" style="width: 100%; height: auto; cursor: pointer;" draggable="true"><p>(btw don't look at the initial message.)</p>